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I have no way of knowing how long I'll even be here in the future or where I'm even going to be. Who knows, I could disappear at any time and none of you would know whether I was alive or dead. I have disappeared like this before and have cause worry, so I apologize in advance in case it ever actually does happen again. Perhaps one day, circumstances will prevent any of you from being able to contact me and maybe the other way around would be true too. I have no control over how things are going to turn out. Obviously none of us do. We just have to face whatever's coming our way even if it's complete bullshit. I'm not planning to just leave, but I'm just saying it could happen, whether I want it or not.
But just in case anything does happen, I just want to say I'm grateful for all the friends I've made on Twitter, Discord, and YouTube and hell, even Yoyogames way back in the day. Not that too many from the last one still talk to me. It's nice to know that people actually care about my existence, even if I am the type to burn someone's house down in Minecraft in a stupid prank. I appreciate all of you for being around and putting up with me. Some of you I've known longer than the rest and I've seen how you've changed over the years, whether I think most of you improved or digressed, I'll just keep that to myself. But truly, thanks for interacting with me and entertaining me with your own bullshit (and I don't mean bad bullshit here). But most of all thanks for talking to me since I don't have that many IRL friends anymore. I've lost a lot of the things I used to have. But even so, I've kept moving on as a background character in someone else's story. I no longer feel like a protagonist. Heck, sometimes it's easy to feel like I don't have a place in this world because society is setup in a way that's not for people like me. I'm not extroverted enough to talk to too many people and I'm not good with mornings. There's not a whole lot I'm good at. Anything I think I might have a shot at, I lose motivation for pretty quickly, so a lot of my projects end up unfinished. It's unfortunate. But even with what a mess I am, I still plan to keep going. So don't worry too much about me here. Who knows? Maybe I'm worrying too much about everything right now. I might wake up tomorrow and things will be fine or the world will be on fire. You just never know what tomorrow holds. I don't know how many of you I'll talk to the next day or which of you, I'll be talking to. Although, there are different regulars at different points in time, it seems. Anyways, if I ever disappear and there's no way to contact me, that isn't going to mean I'm dead. Even if I end up at a point where I can't access my other devices, I should at least have my phone and I'll post to Twitter from there. However, my phone's old as fuck so I can't send more than 140 characters and I won't be able reply of your replies, even if I set my phone to see them. Well, I don't know what's going to happen but I'm not too confident in the future. Hopefully that will change soon.
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